28 days at most & i am getting antsy.
well, antsy & b*tchy.
i had to restrain myself from making snide comments to a old work buddy on fb today when she announced that she & her hubs are expecting twins. i also had to restrain myself from jumping down N's throat yesterday for spending 4 hrs visiting with his parents, who he never sees. i had to stop myself from yelling at my mom for not getting enough fabric to make 2 curtains for 3's room. i find myself having to bite my tongue to keep from saying things like "wuss" to my friend who keeps talking about how difficult it is to be a SAHM to her one child. in short, i am acting like a big brat & driving even myself nuts.
i never felt like this with the boys, bc my overwhelming emotion was fear. i'm not afraid this time, just cranky as h*ll. & when even i felt cranky with the twins, i also felt justified in my b*tchiness after months of bedrest & constant fear & stress. this time, i have zero justifiable reasons to be a jerk & yet cannot stop myself from wanting to lash out at anyone & everyone.
mercifully, the only people excaping my wrath right now are the little dudes. somehow the complete lack of patience doesn't seem to extend to them & i am grateful for that. however, if 3 takes another 28 days to get here, we may be making it on our own, since i seriously doubt there will be anyone left who wants to deal with me by then, except perhaps my babies.
I've been there. P's threatened to close down the baby shop because of it. :P You'll get through it. Chances are, if you notice it, no one else is. And if they do, they'll forgive you because you're pregnant. ((HUGS)) You're almost there!!
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ReplyDeleteOh Kate, I could have wrote this post when I was KU with Rylee. I was such a bitch, and I knew I was a bitch. There wasn't a damn thing I could do to stop it either. It was like a horrible nightmare that I could not wake up from.
They will forgive you!
~hugs~ Kate. You will have #3 and people will be so awed by the baby that they will forget how much of a _____ you were;)
ReplyDeleteBut, I don't think you are being one, and if you are, oh well. You are a mom of twins, who is preggo with #3, and things need done, and hormones are raging, and it's ok!