Escape from Jail! (subtitle: "Kate Leaves the Couch")

I made N look at the wall clings with me & he humored me by helping to pick some for the boys' room. We decided on a "woodlands" & a "safari" from the wee gallery collection. & I even went ahead & ordered them! This is a big deal for us, as we've had a really hard time buying anything baby-related & have shoved all our gifts into the spare bedroom.

On top of that, we actually went baby shopping today. (Yes, me too! I got special permission to get off my couch as long as it was a brief trip & I stayed in the wheelchair. Honestly, I would have laid on a gurney just to get out of the house!) I've been kind of down about not preparing for the boys, & bummed I can't participate & be blissfully excited like a normal first-time-mom, so actually going shopping & picking out things like a baby bathtub was beyond awesome for me. 1) because I got out of the house to go somewhere other than the hospital, 2) because I actually got to help with some sort of baby-preparation activity, & 3) because we're finally reaching a point mentally & emotionally where we can shop & plan for the boys to come home. Although as I typed that last one, I got nervous... I'm so afraid something might happen, & while I know it's silly to think that anything I do could jinx us, I can't shake the fears.

I'm totally wiped out now (seriously, speaking long sentences makes me lose my breath, so I am exhausted after my brief foray away from my couch) & N put on Shrek for me to zone out to, so I'm going to lay here & try to think happy thoughts.